So I have been walking now for two weeks and generally watching what I am eating for about a month now and I am surprised to find I have dropped a pant size! An exciting little victory. I have not lost any weight according to the scale but I must have lost some inches. I looked in the mirror a couple days ago and noticed how saggy my jeans looked – not to mention that they were falling down whenever I bent over to pick things up off the floor. I paraded on down to Target and was ecstatic to find that I am now a size twelve. I feel much more confident in pants that fit and am excited for the day when these twelves will be falling off!
I am happy I am taking a slow approach to my weight loss and body transformation. I used to be a yo-yo dieter and it took a lot of work to break the habit. In a fit of frustration over my body image I would adhere myself to a drastically strict “diet” change overnight. “No more bread, sweets, junk food!” I would shout at my internal self. And for a couple days I would make it and do just fine then I would crave something and if I ate just one m&m I had lost – I had failed – I was a loser. Then all rules fell apart and it was time to bake brownies and eat macaroni and cheese by the box. I struggled with this for YEARS until I finally started listening to my brain instead of my feelings.
I was also addicted to the scale in those days. I remember when I was younger weighing myself twice a day at times and dying every time I saw the scale go up by even half a pound. The scale just gives a number. That number does not have to define your life or decide how much self love you should have that day. You should love yourself no matter what the number is.
My goal through this journey is to make small changes that will compound over time to form a changed lifestyle. I am not going to rush things or hold myself to some hard and set time frame or requirements. Right now I am simply building up my stamina and strengthening my lungs so that in time they can achieve my future goals. I want to be patient and love myself through this process. I am not concerned with the scale but more with my well being and the simple fact that I am doing better or more today than I was doing yesterday or last month.
Are you struggling with your weight loss or fitness goals? Share with me in the comments so we can support and motivate each other along the way.